I am a control freak. I have accepted this about myself. Adam, however, has enlightened me to how little “control” we really have. We are driving but Spirit is driving too! So when I knew my move date to Hawaii was set I started obsessively researching cars. What car would be good for the island? Why are so many island cars full of rust? Why are so many island cars ridiculously overpriced?? My New York car of 10 years was in no shape to be shipped over so I started dreaming of finding the perfect island car. I had one requirement- it had to be 4-wheel drive. I had a price in mind and I used all of my Shaping Your Destiny meditations to see it. Fast forward to Christmas Day. During charming and not so charming family celebrations, I casually started perusing my Craigslist app on my phone. I saw a lot of 4-wheel drive vehicles on The Big Island and I had a very strong feeling that the energy of the day along with the “aloha spirit” of Christmas was the perfect moment to find a car. There it was – my bright yellow Jeep Wrangler that I had dreamed of. Only it was not the price I had in mind. Much like we are with a pet, the perfect dress or a new home, I “had” to have it and convinced my loving fiancé that we should pour our money into this new purchase. In fact look at how much money we would save on a rental car driving around trying to find a car! It met us at the airport and my now husband named her on the spot. It was if she spoke her name to him: “Willow”.
We forked over the cash and boy, did we drive that Jeep around the whole island exploring every nook and cranny. Life eventually settled down and I noticed some warning signs of something wrong. To save you from this becoming a mechanic’s special, we were smelling and losing coolant but there were no leaks. I was not fond of what I was reading on the forums and started to realize that I needed to save money for whatever repairs would need to be done. One day after traveling to the other side of the island for a wedding, Mike and I drove to a secluded beach we had read about. We were very excited to see something new and it was our first day off in quite some time. I immediately knew something was wrong on the drive there and sure enough, as we pulled into the parking lot smoke, steam, something dramatic was billowing out from under the hood. I looked at my husband and said, “This is not good.” However, what better place to break down than at the beach? I remembered my prayers of gratitude and thanked Spirit for allowing me to arrive at my destination while I waited for help rather than strand me on the side of the highway in the lava rock desert.
I used my affirmations to convince myself that I would find the best tow truck company and we found a very honest, affordable man. In hindsight, I should have let Spirit drive and allowed the tow guy to tell me where to have the Jeep towed, but I forced my hand and came from a fear based state of lack, asking him to tow me to the nearest station to save on mileage cost. The energy seemed to shift from that point on and what felt like good fortune earlier in the day turned to challenge and resistance for the next few days. During this time I used Power Attunements to create my own reality. I wanted the problem to be a cracked radiator and I wanted it to cost $300 to fix. I believed that I could co-create this and used the Golden Flame to burn away my fears and anxiety that it was something worse.
After hearing crickets, I finally called the mechanic who gruffly told me I was “insert not polite word” and I had a blown head gasket! It would take $2,500 to fix and at least one month’s time to send the head to the machinist. This was not my simple $300 solution and I was crushed. I felt guilty that I had asked my husband to spend all our money on this car. I felt ashamed that I had not spent more time looking and having cars checked over. Most of all I felt afraid of being on an island, stranded without a car, where you have to walk 15 miles from your house to the nearest store.
Feeling overwhelmed I decided to trust my gut and have the Jeep towed back to where we were staying and searched for a second opinion. The universe always provides and I was given the name of a man who would charge half what the shops were charging and had been working on cars for over 30 years. He was my car angel! After looking it over he called me up and said the most angelic words of all…. “You have a cracked radiator and it will cost $300 to fix it.” I laughed and cried all at once. Could this be true? Could I have been getting taken for a ride by the other shop? Did it matter? Here was my outcome that I had Power Attuned.
Recently, while having more maintenance done by another car angel in my hometown (I used my affirmations to find someone close by and my property managers were delighted to announce their son one block over did car repairs for $20/hour- now THAT find is a success story in itself!), the new car angel saw that my radiator level was very low. He did a pressure test and came back with more devastating words “I think you have a head gasket that is starting to go bad.” My heart sank. Here we go again, it was only a temporary reprieve. This was an internal engine problem. I felt depressed. My car angel was positive though and said to drive it for a while and keep checking the levels. Maybe we could prolong the inevitable. This time I was not going to be lazy. Day and night I visualized, chanted, meditated and practically begged Spirit to have the problem fixed with a low cost solution. I was a 4th Treasure cheerleader. Turns out I just had air in the system and needed to go through 3 radiator caps before we found one that did its job and it was all a fluke. $15 in radiator caps is all it cost us. To this day she runs like a dream and there is NO head gasket problem. I am now a true believer that we can change our destiny and change the outcomes of things. I really believe Power Attunements saved my car… and my control freak sanity!
